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Wow, I haven't written in this thing for a very very long time but I think I should try to do it again because it was cool reading entries from when i was 16 and 17. I'm 20 now and a lot of things have happened and changed since my last entry. I live in Pittsburgh now at Job Corps and as of March 20th I will have been here for a whole year. It's pretty depressing to think about but I have met a lot of cool people here and learned a lot about myself. I'll just start it off here since I couldn't tell you everything that has happened in the past but long story short Trina and Chrissy introduced me to a lot of people, I got kicked out of my house and such and now I'm at job corps. Since I've been at Job Corps I have met the love of my life and some really awesome friends. I went to this kid Starkid's house this past weekend and it was a helluva time, I went with James, Kim, Miles, Stephanie, Rosa, Emory, and Desiree. It sucked really bad when we first got there but I could tell these people did a lot of drugs. Eventually by the time night time came all of us except Desiree were rolling on e pills.it was a great time we just hugged and layed on each other all night long. in the morning James and i did some more e and rolled again and did it. and it was amazing. So now im back at school today and hating it because I'm so tired from 28 hours of tripping. I'm doing Networking in school, i was in college but i pretty much failed everything because i was too interested in getting high and being with James and not interested enough in school. In June I'm hoping to be moving with James and steph to cali to live with my mom and then move out of there and get our own apartment. So that's what i'm doing now, stay high.
Fanz?
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| YIH YIH NIGGA |
[15 Dec 2004|03:34pm] |
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Saturday in ON biitches.
Your Hippie Chick Name is: Patchouli
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Your Porn Star Name is: Busty de Lusty
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Your Penis Name is: The Bald Avenger
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[21 Nov 2004|05:33pm] |
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I came as a rat- Modest Mouse |
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Grades...
Jazz. A+
Math. A+
Gov. A+
Lit. D
Bio C
Drama A+
Study Hall. N/A
Homeroom. N/A
Yeah rock on, man I did so much better than last year!!!
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[14 Nov 2004|03:11am] |
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IM in love...
with myself and whoever comment on this post.
P.S. its -2 degrees celsius here and thats 28 F
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| The List |
[11 Nov 2004|05:11pm] |
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Well, everyone is making a list so I decided to make one to, hopping on the bandwagon is just what I do...
1. I don't drink ANY drink without a ton of ice...good luck catching me drinking a warm drink(aside from cocoa)
2. I don't eat meat, not because i'm an animal freak, I just decided to stop one day and haven't since.
3. I don't like people who try to be something they aren't but...who does?
4. If you can make me laugh you pretty much have my attention and my devotion.
5. I'm not like most girls...and I can prove it
6. I'm NOT obbsesed with boys..love me or leave me is how I see it, they're nto worth the trouble, at least I haven't met one worthy yet.
7. I love music...and when I say ALL kinds I mean it...even country and classical.
8. I'm obbsesed with saying two things..."what's crackin'" and "death"
9. I eat more cheese than any human being should...
10. I live in Williamsport with a San Deigo mind frame...it sure is fun...
11. I don't like drama, so I don't surround myself with it, it been workign very well for me
12. I truly do not enjoy quiet time, most of the time
13. I dye my hair and pierce myself because it gives me something to do and for no other reason
14. I play video games...deal with it
15. I love it when people try to impress me for whatever reason, it ammuses me
16. I'm good at the whole advice thing but I'm not someone who lets you cry about how bad your life is blah blah blah
17. More recently I am quiet, I like to sit back and let other people talk, it's a really good way to learn about people
18. I am not a virgin, and I never plan to be
19. I do not regret anything in my past present or future.
20. I live in the now, because when else would I want to be?
21. I like makign people think i'm not cool, it's shocking how many people won't talk to you if they think your not cool, it's an effective way to wead out the people you wouldn't want to know anyways
22. My best friend is Alicia, she is awesome wether she or anybody thinks otherwise
23. I'll support you in anything you do, and I mean anything, even if you are a blundering idiot for it.
24. I like canada, get over it
25. I spend a lot of time at the theater, I love it, it's my passion
26. I want to be a sound designer when I grow up, I think it'd be the most awesome job of all time, no one can tell me otherwise
27. I'm very hard to convince, if i'm set in an idea or way, good luck changing my mind
28. I am very opinionated, even if my opinions seem stupid to you, accept them, cause I accept yours
29. I lost religion years ago, and I don't intend to search for it any time soon
30. I have smoked, I have gotten drunk, I have done drugs, and what?
31. I used to have a 12in. mohawk, those were my badass days.
32. I dress different than anyone I know, some people say it's unique, I say it's cheap.
33. I love love love thrift stores, I wouldn't dare spend money anywhere else.
34. I collect bouncy balls, I have over 100, I want to let them loose downa huge hill and/or mountain one day, that'll be a good day
35. Accents excite me
36. I don't enjot huge crowds of people, but I do if it's a show
37. I have been told that my eyes are my best physical feature, I would agree
38. I can be funny if I want, vey funny in fact, but don't expect me to be funny all the time, it wastes my energy
39. I have selective a.d.d
40. I am from San Diego, but I don't like the beach and I don't surf, see stereotypes aren't always right
41. I tend to do really bad in school, that's changing
42. I'm not myself in the morning
43. I'm not affectionate, I don't like to be touched, but I like touching other people, I supose it's a complex thing
44. I'm obssesed with commas
45. I'm nicer than I seem, you just have to give me a chance
46. I thouroughly enjoy reggae
47. Brown is my favortie color, yes, the color of poop
48. I like cold weather better than hot weather
49. I have a seriously terrible jacket obssesion, I own about 30 or more jackets and coats
50. I rock.
That was a long list, and it could've been longer, i'll save it for later
And heres me...
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| Just another day in the life of a shoe... |
[07 Nov 2004|07:09pm] |
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So today iw oke up, daryll was here, did the play, came home, made raviolli, and now im attempting to get a hold of scott, whom has been ignoring me or has been away from all forms of technology for a few hours....either way, im tired, might go see a movie tonight, and i am realizing that i have a problem with commas, alright, end bitches.
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[05 Nov 2004|03:28pm] |
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So, tommorow is Zach's b-day 7yr old partay nigga's. Don't front. I took a hit of the danky today, it was such a tease now im on a mission to get some danky of me own, people here call it "tree" now wtf is that about...I miss Alicia and Matt...: ( I think scotts going to ask me to officially be his girlfriend tommorow..ugh dumbass. i hate guys, fuck. Anyways,The most pressing news right now is that BEN smells like sweaty ass cheeks. gross. end bitches
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[30 Oct 2004|07:48pm] |
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So, this is pretty wicked, on friday i got chosen to go to a republican conference thing at the airport and video tape dick cheneys speach...Hes the Vice pres. for all you politically inept. Anyways i was up thurr with my press pass next to news channels and cnn totally intense. Heres the best part, in the entire hanger, out of all the camera people there I was the ONLY person to get audio feed on my video. Cool huh, the Secret Service thought so and they contacted me at home and school so that they could get a hold of my tape. Yeah its awesome, the Secret Service came to my house. so friday morning before the whole shpeal i made 50 bucks by calling a buncha people and telling them about and ethan allen sale, weehaw. Today i went grocery shopping at the amish store and bought hair dye so i am currently dying my hair. Scott asked me to go bowling, weee a second date, bludnfjf. End bitches
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| Teenage wasteleand.... |
[27 Oct 2004|10:07pm] |
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Here is me, latest update, My mom is gone and so is b-rad. My lip hurts and i am tired. end, bitches.
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| more holy than thou... |
[24 Oct 2004|07:19pm] |
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I got m lip pierced and the student one acts are finished finally, tommorow is another day. My mom came hurr, shes living wit the grandparents and such. If my dad wants to divorce her she'll be returning to Pam Springs with my little brother. Ben got a grocey store hoot owl shift job as a stock boy. oh soo gooey. thats all for now folks. bitches.
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[12 Oct 2004|07:20am] |
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HEY! OK so i just got the news that my mom was on her way driving here, she got to arizona and turned around. wtf. hahah fucking skitzo. anyways, my little brother is flying out there on the 26th i guess and so yeah. lalala family falling apart wee. Um, im in a particularly good mood right now. This girl (trina) from school called me and asked me to go hang out with her and her friend kayla, and it was a jolly good time. we talked for like an hour found out we had alot on common despite thier gothicness/grundgeness. They're cool gals. It just goes to show you never can tell what people are like until you meet them. It was something i have been craving for quite some time, the whole social interaction thing. It deffinitly what ive been needing, to not be alone and bored out of my cranium. On my walk home with kayla some black men nearly hit us with their car and they drove up and said "hey you wanna get hit" and i thought they had said you wanna give ehad so i was like...and then hes all "and i dont mean with the car" and i laughed because it wasa funny line and then said "no thanks" and continued walking. it was humerous. So i guess i have to choose again between palm springs and here and well, im thinking here, but i want nearer to home so bad. God damn decision making son of a bitch fsfbekgdjbvb. anywyas in our talking i said gnarly and they thought it was the most entertaining so i think ill incorporate more SD west coast sltylee in my lingo, cause im gangsta stylee like that. g. anywho i duno im in a wierd hyper type mood and i have nothing else to say so peace out bitches. end
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[11 Oct 2004|08:54pm] |
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Wow, I'm starting to really enjoy myself here, straight A's, going on dates, being involved in theater, making friends, shouldn't it be good? I feel like all this should be making me happy, but I fell like there s a huge ass void in it all, and I think I know what it is, it's you. I miss my friends, I miss my soulmates and my family from another mother. I don't think that I could gain any experience here in Williamsport that will make my life complete. Getting good grades? Wonderful as it is, who do I have to show off too. Going on dates...great, but why isn't it someone I know. Theater, fucking wonderful, but why can't I share it with anyone. People are going through really tough times back in San Diego and I'm sitting here feeling like a useless lump of crap. What can I do to help? Nothing, give my words of encouragement? That means nothing, I don't want to be in peoples "hearts" I want to be all up in thier faces. I want to be sharing the good times and the bad with people, I want to know whats goin on in thier lives from a first person point of view. I don't want the latest bad or good update on line or over the phone, I want to be there. This whole business with my mom isn't making anything any better, I seriosuly do feel like a glass box of emotion, as goddamn cheesy as that sounds. I feel like a fucking skitzo. I'll be happy and cheery one second and a nervous reck the next. I'll be totally angry one minute and then cry during a stupid ass commercial about a mom trying to figure out what sport her son would be best at, only to discover that choir is where he shines. WTF is that?! I need help. I need to help someone and I need someone to help me. I feel lost, I don't feel at home and I don't feel right, no matter how hard I try and force myself to like this place, everything reminds me of something from home and I get all depressed or reminiscent of the times when I actually felt right and when I actually felt at home. I was ripped from everything I know and love and I feel so helpless and it's breaking my soul. I'm becoming a souless, helpless, zombie of boredom and lost memories. And let me tell you something, it FUCKING BLOWS! I'm exhausted, i'm exhausted with my life. I want to curl up in my blankets, and I never want to come out. I want to be alone, I want to never be bothered by anyone else in this godforsaken podunk little town.
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[06 Oct 2004|02:18pm] |
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OK, my mom is coming back, but is still dirvorcing my dad. This cannot go on, I am a glass box of emotion.
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| MY agenda |
[04 Oct 2004|10:04pm] |
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THIS is my agenda for the week of 10/5 -10/8
10/5- School, Sound FX search, Rehearsal for Frong Prince
10/6- School, Rehearsal for FP
10/7- School, Show for Girl Scouts
10/8- School, Show
10/9- Lunch Date, Show, Show
Yeah So tongiht I got asked out on a lunch date for sat. WTF? this guy scott asked me out. I was appaled. I don't see myself doing that, but I agreed, so we will see where the heck that leads to..I talked ot matt for like 2 hours the other night, boy oh boy do i miss that kid so bad. My moms OFFICIALLY staying in Palm Springs, shes been really up and down about it, but finally made up her mind. So I have to decide where to go live, im really leaning towards staying here, but we will see how things are going by the time x-mes break rolls aroud, ah, my hectic life, gotta love it.
Peace Bitches
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[01 Oct 2004|04:29pm] |
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I went to New York on Wed. It was amazing. The Lion King was amazing. I had a more than spectacular time. There was a pep rally at school today, boy was that chaotic. The guy from my english class who I joke around with a lot got homecoming king. Hoorah for him. The frog prince id going really well and all that crap, theres some really cool people there. I'm getting used to being here but i still miss SD. I'm actually going to a williamsport millionaires football game tonight, haha, wow. Um, my mom officially lives in Palm Springs now, we found out yesterday that shes laving my dad and all that jazz, so anyways, I have a lot of soul searching to do. It seems like i get more e-mail from oprah than anyone else, depressing, haha. LATERSKIES KIDDOS!!!
P.S. I found out the person who sits next to me in biology is a girl today, holy shit was that a shocker!
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| NEED FOR WEED |
[27 Sep 2004|03:27pm] |
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YAY, i'ma goin' to see THE LION KING on Broadway on WED. I cannot hardly wait. I switched into drama homeroom with all the drama geeks so weeee. AND im getting WEED on THURS. I cannot hardly wait. I threw up in my mouth a little. END
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name:] Danielle
[nick name:]Shoe, Lumen, Dice
[D.O.B.:]9/4/87
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[In the morning I am:] asleep
[Love is:] a four letter word
[I dream about:] people interacting, everyday life
Opposite Sex:
[What do you notice first?] Hair
[What is the ideal date?] playing video games…haha
[Perferred qualities?] humor, laid back
[Who do you have a crush on?] Spiderman
[Who is the easiest to talk to?] Matt or Thomas
Last Person:
[You slow danced with:] N/A, I don’t slow dance
[You talked to:] Johnny
[Hugged:] Daryll
[Kissed:] Oh jeesh,…Ian
[Laughed with:] Johnny
[Really cared about:] EVERYONE
Numbers:
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: 0
[of hearts i have broken?] : 0
[of boys/girls i have kissed?] : 4…5?
[of girls i have kissed?] : 0
[of drugs taken illegally?] : 4
[of tight friends?] : 6..7?
[of cd's that i own?] : a lot like 120
[of scars on my body?] : like 42
[of things in my past that i regret?] : 1
Others:
[i know]: A lot about a lot of things
[i want]: to have the perfect career
[i have]: a sore throat
[i wish]: I was home
[i hate]: Williamsport, PA
[i miss]: EVERYONE
[i fear]: Blow Dryers
[i hear]: music, UM NIN hahaha
[i search:] for my happy place
[i love]: Ben Stiller
[i care]: too little
[i always]: say what im thinking
[i cry]: when Wilson floats away in castaway
[i do not always]: want to act cheerful
[i confuse]: everyone
[i can usually be found]: hitting the bong
[i need]: some friends out ehre
[sarcastic]: is my middle name…
[friend]: I miss
[shy]: haha NOT
[talkative]: very
[adventurous]: always
[intelligent]: so much, though I don’t utalize it enough
Self Analysis:
[most annoying thing you do]: not know when to stop talking
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: oh, that’s personal
[describe your personality in one word]: good. hahaha
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: eyes
[height]: 5’8”
[a city you'd like to visit]: city? UM I wanna go to Scotland or germany
[a book you highly recommend]: smack
[the music you prefer while alone]: modest mouse
[your favorite band]: oh lord, no
[a film you could watch over and over]: ENCINO MAN
[a TV show you watch regularly]: True Life: I’m a dumb MTV watcher, Mythbusters
Anything Else? I love me.
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